Currently Listening PCD By The Pussycat Dolls see related

as it turns out: I will not be attending UC Davis.

it's a bit depressing to know that i have to go to a junior college. i worked really hard in high school, all four years, just to end up going to a jc. doesn't seem fair at all, but i guess things happen for a reason and i hope that at the end of this that the reason shows it's face.

it was my decision to stay here and not go, under some degree of duress though. complications in the housing aspect came into the picture. the reason for that being is because i missed the housing application deadline by one day. ONE DAY. one day changed everything. because of my missing that one day i was placed on a waiting list, [side note: this year UCD admitted a record number of students, a couple hundred more than they have in the past 10 years] a rather long waiting list. and even with the expansion of double dorms to triple dorms they still couldn't grant everyone a dorm. so i didn't get one, therefore i had to start apartment hunting on my own. and boy was that fun. the price of a one bedroom/one bathroom apartment runs for $750, at the least. RIDICULOUSLY EXPENSIVE. but i managed to find a group of guys that were also in my situation and we were to room together, the 4 of us guys in an apartment. after some time i was rejected and left to continue hunting yet again, but to no avail. apartments everywhere were already taken or were asking for way too much. with time running out and expenses bound to pile up i decided that the smarter thing to do was to just stay here...yes the decision did hurt and much too much time to make, but i made it and now i'm still here and am going to be here for a while.

it's sad really.

going to a jc.
and single.

i guess what could be worse is if i became a juniorcollege dropout and be single.

Currently Listening The Miseducation Of Lauryn Hill see related

What is it about people that makes them feel that they can parade around as fatuous characters and manipulate those whom they claim to love to love them? It sickens me, really. I've had things happen in my life to make me lose all hope in the supposed goodness within all of us. Ill acts are heavier than good.

I guess Lauryn Hill was right when she sang the lines: "...a friend once said, and I found to be true, that everyday people, they'll lie to God, So what makes you think they won't lie to you???"

Like Cain and Abel, Caesar and Brutus, Jesus and Judas, backstabbers do this.